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hi i'm lex
"there's gotta be more to life than this."
In reality, my evolution really began when I bottomed out hard during COVID. I was living on my own for the first time ever in the most beautiful apartment on the coast of New Hampshire, I was making more money than I ever had, had a boyfriend who wanted to take care of me, a puppy (my dream), and yet I was more miserable and depressed than I ever had been in my entire life.
I checked every box I thought I was supposed to check. I kept asking myself "Why am I not happy?" and lied awake at night thinking...
In reality, my evolution really began when I bottomed out hard during COVID. I was living on my own for the first time ever in the most beautiful apartment on the coast of New Hampshire, I was making more money than I ever had, had a boyfriend who wanted to take care of me, a puppy (my dream), and yet I was more miserable and depressed than I ever had been in my entire life.
I checked every box I thought I was supposed to check. I kept asking myself "Why am I not happy?" and lied awake at night thinking...
It all started in 1994...
jk jk I won't take you down that far
jk jk I won't take you down that far
The moment I got curious about more, more started knocking at my door
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If it wasn't coming straight from my soul, if I was following someone else's path to find my happiness and pushing only for the destination of "then I can finally be happy," then I would spend the rest of my life feeling like I was never reaching my potential. If I was continuing to shove down the very real feelings that were screaming internally for me to listen then I'd be living the life I dreaded. I was on my way to a mid-life crisis and I was only 26 years old. This was not the way.
If it wasn't coming straight from my soul, if I was following someone else's path to find my happiness and pushing only for the destination of "then I can finally be happy," then I would spend the rest of my life feeling like I was never reaching my potential. If I was continuing to shove down the very real feelings that were screaming internally for me to listen then I'd be living the life I dreaded. I was on my way to a mid-life crisis and I was only 26 years old. This was not the way.
Once this clicked, everything rapid fire changed
and through all of the inner exploration I realized something so important that was never taught to me when I was younger...
Then it was through psychedelic treatment for my anxiety, getting off my adderall once and for all, stepping into my first intentional state of singlehood, hiring a coach, and continuing to ask myself the deeper questions.
First it was the opportunity to move across the country in 2021
Then it was through psychedelic treatment for my anxiety, getting off my adderall once and for all, stepping into my first intentional state of singlehood, hiring a coach, and continuing to ask myself the deeper questions.
I’m also a shameless dog mom, a web designer, a Denver resident for now, and the friend that’s going to send you a song when I’m thinking about you because music is my primary love language.
You can probably find me in my kitchen groovin’ to whatever music fits my mood, my notes app is full of half-written poems and notes you’ll likely have to decode from the 4 books (and 3 audiobooks) on my roster, I’m one of those rare people who’s not active on social media, and most recently, I’ve found a deep obsession with pickleball to which I don’t even know the real rules and I’m not that good but hey, pointless fun is a lifestyle.
Coffee and breakky are the 2 things that get me out of bed most days, yet I’m the epitome of a morning person, I’m the most approachable person you’ve probably ever met, as told to me by most grocery clerks and general strangers on the street looking for directions to a place I’ve only lived in for 1 month, and for at least the last 3 years of my life I’ve found more clarity in sitting in my own chaos than in any self-help book, course, or seminar.
Feel like you know me yet? A little? Well let’s adventure on.
I've spent the last 4 years choosing the path that intuitively has led me to running 2 successful businesses, moving to places that sparked my curiosity just because I could, finding my dream partner while barely looking, co-creating a massive creative project to life, finding community that gets me and doesn't make me feel small, and a sh*t ton more that I'd never be able to fit on this about page, but maybe I'll put in in that book I'm writing
Everyone told me I was too sensitive, I was irresponsible, I needed to get a real job, I needed to find someone who was serious about settling down, I should have picked a different career, I should have saved money, I should have...you get it. And for years those voices overpowered my own. It wasn't until I stopped seeking the outside world's validation that my world re-shaped itself.
Now I live in a world where I call the shots, make the rules, and change them whenever I want because I can. I continue to ask myself the questions, take bold action especially when I'm scared, and examine my inner world as a clear reflection of my outer world. I see my own energy as something that's in my control, no longer playing the victim or the puppet. My emotions are the path toward my deepest desires. I feel like I've finally found what it means to be free.
Aspects of myself that once felt like the worst parts of me are now the parts of me that I share with the world proudly, that have brought me all the things I've desired and continue to do so
Everyone told me I was too sensitive, I was irresponsible, I needed to get a real job, I needed to find someone who was serious about settling down, I should have picked a different career, I should have saved money, I should have...you get it. And for years those voices overpowered my own. It wasn't until I stopped seeking the outside world's validation that my world re-shaped itself.
Now I live in a world where I call the shots, make the rules, and change them whenever I want because I can. I continue to ask myself the questions, take bold action especially when I'm scared, and examine my inner world as a clear reflection of my outer world. I see my own energy as something that's in my control, no longer playing the victim or the puppet. My emotions are the path toward my deepest desires. I feel like I've finally found what it means to be free.
Whether your story sounds just like mine, has aspects of it, or is completely different but honors the same essence, I'm here to tell you that there's so much for you to tap into, and I'd love to help you through it.
I honor both the sacred plant medicines in my work and the medicine that's deep inside you ready to be unearthed.
You know you're made for more, it's why you dream of it. The creative project, the dream relationship, the home that feels like it's calling you, all the things you can't get off your mind are there for a reason.
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It's my deepest honor to support others on this path of questioning who they are and what they really want
Whether your story sounds just like mine, has aspects of it, or is completely different but honors the same essence, I'm here to tell you that there's so much for you to tap into, and I'd love to help you through it.
I honor both the sacred plant medicines in my work and the medicine that's deep inside you ready to be unearthed.
You know you're made for more, it's why you dream of it. The creative project, the dream relationship, the home that feels like it's calling you, all the things you can't get off your mind are there for a reason.
it's time for you to take brave action and go after your dream life fearlessly, and I'm here to help you do it.
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I don't think this is a 'follow these steps' kind of story, but because transparency is important to me, here's how my journey went down.
I don't think this is a 'follow these steps' kind of story, but because transparency is important to me, here's how my journey went down.
The unravelling
what actually happened
the awakening
One day in a meditation, I heard the message, “Get off birth control so you can feel more connected to yourself.”
You can imagine my confusion (?!?) as someone who literally sucked at meditating and felt like I was always counting the down the seconds until it was over. But I did what the message said, and in the following months I found myself deep in introspection, asking questions to myself and receiving answers that felt like breadcrumbs guiding me toward a different way to live.
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No spared details
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Along the way, I found myself unintentionally working for a ketamine treatment company, when I didn’t even know what ketamine was.
As the content marketing manager (my former career) I was in charge of the blog, researching neuroplasticity and the effectiveness of psychedelic medicine for mental health. Curious af at this point, I made a consultation and began ketamine treatment for my own anxiety which seemed to linger in my life.
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No spared details
the curiosity
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I didn’t realize that I was deep in the process of building healthier and sustainable neural pathways that no longer saw me as the victim but rather an experiment.
This led me down the path of more intentional journey work, attending ceremonies, and microdosing mushrooms to integrate the experiences I was having. As much as I researched when I worked for the ketamine company, I had no idea what I was doing, I was just following my intuition and taking the next best step over and over again.
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No spared details
the changing
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In one of my higher-dose ceremonies, I found myself in an experience in which I felt I had no support, no one who understood what I went through, and no idea how to reconnect myself back to my earth-side life.
For 7 months I tried making sense of what happened and though to this day I’m still unpacking it, it all made sense when I got a mysterious free ticket to the MAPS conference in Denver, found the integration coaching program I’m now certified in, and heard loud and clear that I was exactly where I was supposed to be.
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the climax
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And though I want that to be the end of this beautifully linear story, it wasn’t. My doubts continued to rise, and I questioned that this was the right path for me. As someone who struggles to do just one thing, I was finding it hard to put all my eggs into this basket without fearing what I’d be missing.
Then I had one of the most pivotal psychedelic journeys of my life, reminding me that this work was simply one tool in my toolbox, but where I really was meant to be focusing my attention on was the emotions I had run from my whole life.
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No spared details
the plot twist
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Moments of anger arose. The thing I spent ALL my energy avoiding was the thing I was meant to be coaching on? What kind of sick joke was this?
When I eventually let out the anger and the grief of the ‘wasted’ time trying to hide who I was for all those years be, I realized that the only way I could coach people through this was if I’d gone through it myself. A gift.
Which is exactly where you’re finding me now. Eager to see how I can help others embrace their gifts, live the lives they want, and love who they are without feeling like they need to change.
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No spared details
the resolution
What brings me most alive? helping you see that the life you dream of is entirely possible. That you biggest feelings are your greatest superpower. That taking wildly courageous action can happen the moment you choose to change the story.
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Some things that may or may not be relatable but make sense to me
Wanna know more?
what's in my cup
astro
human design
words i love
podcasts I subscribe to
nicknames for my dog
music on repeat
superpowers
capricorn rising
saggitarius sun
cancer moon
feeling sense
manifesting generator
6/3: the responsible adventurer
gut intuition
The moon
pulls whole oceans of water
in and out
every day
and you’re telling me
as a body of mostly water
there is no way
this could ever affect
the ways you are feeling?
Ziggy Alberts
kygo
St. south
trevor hall
ziggy alberts
emmit fenn
lane 8
taylor swift
reluctantly
Expanded //
to be magnetic
we can do hard things
On Purpose with Jay Shetty
Almost 30
Impressive multitasker
Handstands everywhere
Creative genius
Impulsive decision maker
Energy purifier
Turning emotions to empowerment
Helping people live more life
monkey
beans
squid
lilo burrito
mamacita babygirl
stinkiest breath in the whole wide world
wiwo
cacao
kombucha
half cafe americano
coconut water
In that order
What's in my cup
astro
human design
podcasts i subscribe
music on repeat
superpowers
nicknames for my dog
wanna know a bit more?
Some things that may or may not be relatable but make sense to me! Scroll through to learn more
Words I love
capricorn Rising
saggitarius sun
cancer moon
feeling sense
manifesting generator
6/3: the responsible adventurer
gut intuition
The moon
pulls whole oceans of water
in and out
every day
and you’re telling me
as a body of mostly water
there is no way
this could ever affect
the ways you are feeling?
Ziggy alberts
